I think today it finally hit me that my grandpa is gone and never coming back. I don’t know why today of all days is when it hit me but I was on the verge of tears all day and after my last class I just cried and cried. What hurts me the most is that he’s supposed to be here. Yes, he was sick, but I thought he was getting better. This was the hardest loss I’ve ever gone through, because my grandpa was supposed to live forever. I at least thought he’d get to see my graduate college and maybe get married. I wish I could have one more chance to see you and hug you and tell you how much I love you. Thank you for giving me the best years of my life, I’ll cherish them forever <3
A few days ago, I lost my grandpa to stage 4 lung cancer. He was the greatest man I’ve ever known. And I know a lot of people say this about anyone who died, but my grandpa was a huge part of my life. I’m trying to imagine life without him, and I can’t. Our family parties will never be the same. My grandpa touched so many people’s lives, that I know more than just my family are hurting right now. My grandpa was not a man of many words, and his way of showing he cared was not what people would call normal. If you got a sarcastic comment thrown at you, you knew he loved you. Although his time on earth was cut way too short, I know he’ll never fully be gone. I know he’ll be watching over me and my family wherever we go, alongside my grandma. RIP, no words could ever describe how much I’m going to miss you. I love you always, your Angel Big Girl.
How we beat the heat in Australia. Ice cold can on a warm belly.
It seems like every day someone asks me what my plans are for after graduation. Is “I don’t know” an acceptable answer? Because that’s all I can say. I’m having the hardest time accepting that I’m a senior and that I’m graduating in 8 months. I’m not ready to leave the place I’ve called home for the past 4 years or the amazing people I’ve met along the way.
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